September, 2017.

Life, a river which even cuts down mountains as hard as steel, a never ending journey of love and rejoice. We never know, if it happens by chance, by a lucky or unlucky streak. But its results are always due to the choices we did or didn't make. 💕

My life, as I’ve known it, was quite empty. I didn’t know where it was going until it got there. I suppose we all share similar stories. We live in an uncertain world. It’s just the way it is. And it’s natural to want to cling to certainty to feel safe. But waiting for certainty will never lead to success — it’s never gonna happen. You’ve got to learn to embrace uncertainty and to be flexible when faced with the unfamiliar to be able to cope and learn how to thrive.

So, is it bad that life has no certainty? Nope, 👎 you can be pretty sure about it. Living in our safe little world, packed with certainty and comfort, will only ever lead to mediocrity. To live up to our biggest dreams, we’ve got to put ourselves out there.

To give an example, I’d like to bare my story to you. Hope you don’t find it difficult to bear with. 😜

When I was a kid, I was mostly with my family. 🏠 Got used to the feeling of being surrounded by people who love me, always. (Not that it isn’t the case now). I was into a lot of things back then. Piano, Painting, Arcades, TV shows, Books, Computers. Just too much to understand what being loved was. Although, I was lonely, at times, when I joined a residential school. It was barely noticeable. My life felt too certain, almost like that Bon Jovi’s song goes on.

Like every other one’s story, there is always a moment when you’d have stay away from Home, the University phase. But, that brought along some of the best moments of my life.

It all began three years ago. I was this lonely little wallflower, too scared to talk to anyone, let alone actively participate in anything.

Fast forward three years, my college life has been full of ups and downs, late nights with friends, and yes, a lot of partying. 🍺 (I told my mom that I don’t party or drink much and so, Mom, if you find this, I’m incredibly sorry for lying to you I just didn’t want you to be mad or disappointed. I’m secretly a huge disappointment to my family but they don’t know, which makes me hate myself.)

But, that wasn’t the real thing about an unpredictable life, friends were. Life hits me with a brick of loneliness when I’m home. But, at school and college, it was all about that bass. Out of all those, there’re few li’l ones, who’ve been the nicest to me. They might not be the perfect ones, but they were to me.

It’s just been a year (as far as I remember), since we’ve first spoken to each other. Time flies through just talking to her. Almost like a twin from the shades of nowhere. Out of the many things, my college ever gave me, a precious little sister, was the most to me. Thanks for everything, dear Chinnu. 😊

And then, there was the visionary, Google (As I call him). “I don’t know where you are. I don’t know why you’re here. I can tell you, I don’t have a lot of patience. But what I do have is a particular set of tools. Tools, that I’ve acquired over a large number of commits. Tools, that will make me a nightmare for bugs like you. I will look for you. I will find you and I will squish you”. The very little words that roll up my mind, when I think of him. He’s been my favourite pastime ever since we spoke to each other. Not a day goes by without talking to him. My one little guardian angel. 😇

Back to all the well known facts in town. Everyone loves cartoons, right? The one little thing everyone has in common. 🤗 Well, this one doesn’t. Out of all the people in my life, he’s the only one I’ve known not to like cartoons (excluding our parents of course), at all. Seriously, this one has a great distaste for animated movies, Maui (from Moana), in particular. No love for movies, TV shows, stand ups or books until recently. Great, how boring can a man be? Putting aside all of that fiasco, he’s a great companion. I couldn’t believe two lives could be so similar until I met him. Like, in fact, even to the very basics of speaking, imagination (I’m kidding over this, he’s obviously more creative), responsibilities, attitude, he’s a mirror to me. A friend who takes care of us like a child, who gives a call at the end of the day to ensure we’re fine, who thinks others’ happiness is more important than his. And yes, I’m proud of having a friend like him. He made my life more complete and happier.

Coming to the best friend in life, everyone has only one. ❤️ Call me a fool, I don’t care. No matter how clean we come up in saying all are equal, that’s a lie. We always have that one perfect person we look up to. In my case, I’m one lucky devil to have a cousin like her. Most people in our lives only see the bright side of things, the happy face we show up on the outside. Only the very few look through all of that into the heartburn and tears inside. I’m alive tonight only because of her. The one little girl who stood by my side when I needed a shoulder to cry on.

All I can say from the bottom of my heart is I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to be able to share what I love every single day with people that I love. I have to say thank you so much, my friends, because you guys are so damn loyal and I don’t know what I did to deserve you.

So, why did I pour all this out? Because I wanted to share something very important in life. And that is being yourself. If you’re broken, you don’t have to stay broken. Only care about the right thing. It may not always be easy, but it’ll get you better with time. Focus on what you love, not your fear. It doesn’t matter how uncertain or unfair our life is, in the end it’s only the memories that live up to tell.

I’ve always want a good start in life. Over through the years, I’ve learned, the hard way, that all songs don’t rhyme, some don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is not about knowing, it’s about having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without the knowledge of future. The one ☝️ veracious ambiguity.

If you made it to the end of the story, thanks. 😉 And please forgive me if the content wasn’t good enough. (It was real enough for me, though)